梦醒时分迎朝阳

——致甜甜同学的一封信

——a letter to tiantian

甜甜同学：

sweet students:

你好！我是一个差生，没有资格谈什么战胜自己的经验，只想在这里和你说说我的苦恼，你不介意吧？

hello! i'm a poor student. i'm not qualified to talk about my experience of overcoming myself. i just want to tell you about my troubles here. do you mind？

不知道为什么，进了初三就像人在梦中。整个初三如同一圈跑道，对面就是终点。别人都迈开大步跑着，自己说什么也迈不动。只能眼睁睁地看着别人越跑越远，是那样的可望而不可及。

i don't know why, entering the third grade is like a dream. the whole third day is like a circle of runways, opposite is the end. others are running with great strides, and they can't move anything they say. i can only watch others running farther and farther, which is beyond my reach.

忽然发现自己很空虚：电脑、武侠小说像鸦片一般填满了我的心，我深陷其中无法自拔。它们挥霍着我宝贵的时间，我发现作业题越来越难做：英语如同天书般的难啃，数学好像走进了迷宫，物理……高中的校门正慢慢地向我关闭。梦中那散发着一种知识气息的大门，紧紧地关着，我的心也被夹碎了。

suddenly i found myself very empty: computers and martial arts novels filled my heart like opium, and i couldn't extricate myself from it. they waste my precious time, and i find it more and more difficult to do homework problems: english is as hard as a celestial book, mathematics seems to go into a maze, physics the gate of high school is slowly closing to me. in the dream, the door that exudes a smell of knowledge is tightly closed, and my heart is also broken.

想从这梦中醒来，从这空虚之中解脱出来，如同盘古一样手执巨斧把混浊劈成两半。但发现我没有了力量：作业想破了头也做不出来，而小说、电脑如同毒蛇一般缠着我。毫无办法挣脱它们，惟有看着时间流过，从玩电脑的指缝间流过，从看小说的眼皮底下流过。

want to wake up from this dream, free from this emptiness, like pangu holding a huge axe to split the turbidity in two. but i found that i had no power: i couldn't do my homework even if i wanted to break my head, and novels and computers were pestering me like vipers. there is no way to break away from them, but to watch the time flow through, through the fingers of playing computer, and under the eyes of reading novels.

爸爸常对我说初三是拼搏的一年，在这一年考上一个好高中，将来就好办了。并常用那句“十年寒窗无人问，一举成名天下知”来激励我。可我却被游戏和侠客缠住了，动弹不得，大脑也让它们蚀空了。只好如眼前这般庸庸碌碌地活着，如同一具行尸走肉。

my father often told me that the third year of junior high school is a year of hard work. in this year, i was admitted to a good high school, which will be easy to do in the future. and often used that sentence "no one asked in ten years, become famous all over the world" to inspire me. but i was entangled by games and xiake. i couldn't move, and my brain also let them erode. had to live as mediocre as before, like a walking corpse.

这就是我的初三——一个噩梦，只能希望梦中的我能早些醒来，摆脱掉空虚的生活，找回真的自我。

this is my third day - a nightmare. i can only hope that i can wake up early in my dream, get rid of the empty life and find my true self.

可能是咱们还没到享受生活的时刻，不该这般过早的逃避拼搏；可能是课堂外的诱惑太多，我们意志太弱丢失了把握成长的钥匙；可能是家长望子成龙太切，望女成凤太急，不允许我们出现丝毫的偏差……

maybe we haven't got the time to enjoy our life, so we shouldn't escape the struggle so early; maybe there are too many temptations outside the classroom, our will is too weak, and we lose the key to grasp the growth; maybe the parents are too eager for children, too eager for women, and we are not allowed to have any deviation

我想说服我自己，我想让自己从梦中醒过来，去和同学一道看喷薄欲出的朝阳，因为我们都是初生的太阳。

i want to convince myself that i want to wake up from my dream and see the rising sun with my classmates, because we are all the new born sun.

甜甜同学，谢谢你给了我这个机会。

sweetheart, thank you for giving me this chance.

一个关心你的同学

a classmate who cares about you