妈妈，您听我说

灯光下，我娇滴滴地躺在妈妈怀里，一口气向妈妈倾吐着憋了许久的心里话：

under the light, i was lying in my mother's arms, saying to her for a long time:

“妈妈，我从小失去父亲。是您，既给了我母爱，又给了我父爱，使我从未感受过失去父亲的悲哀和寂寞。也正是您教给我做人的道理，使我健康、幸福地成长。妈妈，我要谢谢您。

"mom, i lost my father when i was little. it's you who give me both mother's love and father's love, which makes me never feel the sadness and loneliness of losing my father. it's the truth you taught me to be a human being that makes me grow up healthily and happily. mom, i want to thank you.

“妈妈，您知道吗？我发现您近几年来老多了，两鬓也过早地出现了白发。记得那次，您买米回家，爬楼梯是那样的气喘吁吁，坐了好一会儿还没有能缓过气来。是的，您是老了许多，而我还太小，不懂事，常常惹您生气，但那次，我哭了，偷偷地哭了。我从那天起便萌生了一个念头，那就是再给我找个爸爸吧。从此，我便开始在心中勾勒我想像中的爸爸。那次，我没说，可不久后和您一起去郊游，使我再一次有了这个想法。

"mom, do you know？ i find that you are much older in recent years, and your sideburns are also prematurely gray. remember that time, when you bought rice and went home, you were so breathless when you climbed the stairs. after sitting for a long time, you still couldn't breathe. yes, you are a lot older, and i am too young, not sensible, often make you angry, but that time, i cried, secretly cried. i had an idea from that day, that is to find another father for me. from then on, i began to sketch my imaginary father in my heart. at that time, i didn't say, but i went on an outing with you soon, which made me have this idea again.

“妈妈，您还记得那次郊游吗？那天，您带我参加了您单位组织的郊游。记得，那天吃午饭的时候，我忽然肚子痛起来，痛得在地上打滚，您当时都急哭了。这时，是他，和您一个办公室的张叔叔抱起了我，拦了辆汽车，把我送进了医院。您知道吗？就在他抱起我的一刹那间，我突然觉得他就像爸爸一样，我觉得一直在我心中勾勒的模糊的图像一下子清晰了。我躺在他怀中，觉得好暖和，好暖和呀。

"mom, do you remember that outing？ that day, you took me on an outing organized by your unit. i remember that when i had lunch that day, i suddenly had a stomachache, which made me roll on the ground. you were crying. at this time, it was he and uncle zhang in your office who picked me up, stopped a car and took me to the hospital. do you know？ just as he picked me up, i suddenly felt that he was like a father. i felt that the blurred image that had been sketched in my heart was suddenly clear. i lay in his arms, feeling so warm, so warm.

“从此，我心中的这个愿望愈来愈强烈了，我去偷偷地调查过了，妈妈，张叔叔也是单身的，真的。妈妈，也许您没发觉，他一直在暗中照顾着我们，我看出他对您很有感情。

"since then, this desire in my heart has become stronger and stronger. i have secretly investigated it. mum and uncle zhang are single, really. mom, maybe you didn't realize that he has been taking care of us secretly. i can see that he has a lot of feelings for you.

“妈妈，您是不是有时觉得寂寞？您整天拼命地工作，是不是想从寂寞中解脱？我还常常能看到您，呆呆地坐在书桌前，若有所思地想着什么，您是寂寞的，的的确确是寂寞的。我过去不懂事，不会和您说说心里话，只会烦您。但我还是觉得，您该有个伴了。女儿即将长大成人，不可能永远伴在您的身边，您该有个伴，来陪您度过晚年。

"mom, do you feel lonely sometimes？ do you want to be free from loneliness by working hard all day？ i can often see you sitting in front of your desk, thinking about something, you are lonely, it is really lonely. i didn't know what to say, i won't talk to you, i will only annoy you. but i still think it's time for you to have a company. your daughter is about to grow up. she can't be with you forever. you should have a companion to spend your old age with you.

“妈妈，我曾听外婆讲过，您当时不改嫁是为了我，您说，怕我吃苦。妈妈，如今女儿已长大了，您也该找个伴了，也许您还在思念死去的爸爸，那么长的岁月依旧没有能冲淡您那深深的思念。但是，妈妈，您知道，失去的是再也回不来的。我想，只要您能过上幸福的生活，九泉之下的爸爸是一定会觉得宽慰的。

"mom, i've heard from grandma that you didn't remarry for me at that time. you said, i'm afraid of suffering. mom, now that your daughter has grown up, it's time for you to find a partner. maybe you are still missing your dead father, so long time still can't dilute your deep thoughts. but, mom, you know, what is lost is never to come back. i think, as long as you can live a happy life, jiuquanxia's father will feel relieved.

“妈妈，您听我说，给我找个爸爸，给您自己找个伴侣吧，您就听女儿一次吧，求求您了……”

"mom, listen to me, find me a father, find yourself a partner, just listen to your daughter once, please."

我哭泣着摇动妈妈的臂膀，猛地惊醒了过来，原来是一场梦，但脸上已满是泪水。可那些话分明就是想说给妈妈听的知心话啊，妈妈是不是听到了呢？

i cried and shook my mother's arm. i woke up suddenly. it was a dream, but my face was full of tears. but those words clearly are the intimate words that i want to say to my mother. did my mother hear them？